I just can't seem to shake the sadness I've been feeling the past little while. It's okay when I don't let certain stuff get to me, but lately I can't stop thinking about what went down over the last year, and now I'm worried that I'll never get another chance to do what I love. I won't go into an extreme amount of detail, but during the summer I worked for a studio, and while I was working there I got an offer to go to another studio, right around the same time I found out I was pregnant. When I went to the new studio I told them I was pregnant right from the beginning and immediately I was met with hostility and rudeness and eventually I was fired. Now before anyone says "Why didn't you fight it" let me point out that I was fired before my probationary period was up, so legally there's nothing I could have done. Ever since that occurred I can't help but get down on myself, no matter how much support and DA love is out there for me. I'm scared that I'll never amount to anything and I just can't seem to work past it, and being on maternity leave doesn't help much, cause I just feel like a loser cause I don't have a job, even though I'm taking care of my baby. I'm starting to wonder if this is the right career path for me, and, even after spending a ton of money and time in school I'm wondering if I should just go back and study something where I don't have to be creative and give up my dream.
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Mood:
Defeated