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Yeah, remember that?  Good times, good times.  I believe it's been well over a year since my last art piece went up.  I've honestly only drawn about 3 things since last year, and, after my wacom broke, I completely stopped doing digital art.  I now have a new wacom, I just have to actually install the drivers. I've been so focussed on other things and have been having such a stressful time that I have barely thought about art.  Thanks to all those who still stop by.  Someday I just might go crazy and put up a ton of stuff.  Who knows right?
I think I've reached some sort of impass or something.  I keep wanting to draw both cute/fun illustrative work, and even some fan art maybe as well as more surreal/graphic or abstract illustration.  Is there room for both?  I've been trying to decide what kind of image I want and how I want to represent myself and I just can't figure it out and it's starting to kind of depress me. I'm just not sure what to draw anymore, which is probably why I haven't even attempted to pick up a pencil lately.  Gah I hate being in these slumps.
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If I'm working on something for anyone and you're wondering why I haven't been around it's cause I'm busy making mother's day gifts for my children's 3 grandmothers and it's taking so fricking long!!!!  Argh I haven't even turned on my computer in weeks!  I'll see you all after mother's day and of course as one mom to another

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms, grandmas, and aunts out there!
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yesterday my rabbit, Goodinstew that I had for over a decade passed away.  He was the cutest little rabbit and full of personality.  I got him 11 years ago at a time when I had no one and he became like a best friend to me.  I used to take him everywhere with me like some people do with their dogs.  I will definitely miss him, it's never easy to lose a pet.
  • Mood: Sadness
It seems my computer and I are no longer friends and long story short I ended up loading two copies of "Octonaut"  both had favorites but I ended up deleting one so if you faved my recent pic but it's no longer in your favorites and you actually want it there then you'll have to re-fave the one left, sorry for the trouble.  I have to upgrade my OS so that I can get the latest version of Firefox so that I can actually use DA.  I guess being an old fusspot doesn't always pay off!
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I actually drew something, FINALLY!  I thought the devil would be ice skating, but hell didn't freeze over.  I'm now in the process of lining it and hopefully coloring it to somewhat satisfaction. Sigh, I was looking up Photoshop tuts but for some reason they all just read like greek to me, maybe it's my fate to never be good at digital painting.  I'll just have to love the vector, which I do.  Hopefully I'll get some alone time to finish it soon.  That's about it.
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Here's hoping for a Merry Christmas

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 23, 2012, 11:05 AM


So after then fun events of October and November I was hoping for a fun and cheery Christmas, but that was before my mom was scheduled for open heart surgery on December 13th.  Well she came home from the hospital this Thursday past and is now recovering, so my sister and I will be her caretakers for the next 6 weeks or so, so now it will be even longer before I get some time to do any of the drawings swimming around in my head :(  But I am so thankful that she's doing well and hopefully will recover with no problems.

A Merry Christmas/ Happy Holidays to all my fellow artsy fartsies out there, I love ya all and here's to a wonderful and hopefully productive New Year!

  • Mood: Tired

October, what a shit month that was :(

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 10, 2012, 3:53 AM


October is usually my favorite month, but not this year.  This October my husband lost his step-father suddenly from a heart attack and my father had a stroke on Halloween night.  I'm hoping November will be better but we'll see.

  • Mood: Tired

moved in

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 5, 2012, 5:24 AM


My husband and I are just finishing up moving into our new house.  Oh how great it would be if we owned it, but we're just renting it.  The landlord let us paint though, so I had a blast painting and now decorating my new space.  It reminds me of a little cottage and it's perfect for the two kids, with a huge backyard!  I just got internet installed so yay for that now I can catch up on here.

In other news, Autumn is on the way for sure, my favorite time of year!  Lets here it for beautiful autumn colors, pumpkins and Halloween!

  • Mood: Tired

DomiSM I love you!

Fri Jul 27, 2012, 4:27 PM
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Holy crap, I sign in today and my latest pic has received a DD, WTF!  Thanks so much to :icondomism: for choosing something of mine to be featured, lots of love your way :D

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Home Again

Mon Jul 9, 2012, 7:45 AM
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So on July 2nd Lily was discharged for the hospital finally.  We did have to spend a week at the IWK hospital in Nova Scotia getting all kinds of tests done, but thankfully we're now back in our own bed, not sleeping!  Oh the fun of a newborn.  She had to come home with a nasal tube for feeding, so we sometimes have to feed her through a tube that goes directly into her stomach, at least for now, but I'm just glad we can get back to being a normal family.  Thank you to everyone who gave their best wishes, support from my friends on here means a lot to me, so big hugs to you all.

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a sweet little tiger lily

Mon Jun 18, 2012, 8:18 PM
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On June 1st I gave birth to a sweet little baby girl.  Her name is Lilith Vivian Helena a.k.a Lily.  She was 20.5 inches long and weighed 10 pounds 8 ounces.  Unfortunately it's not all happy baby joy, since she's still in the hospital :(  Now I'm busy going back and forth to the hospital to visit her and trying to squeeze in time with my son as well since he's feeling a little abandoned right now too.  Steve ended up having to go back to work without his little girl coming home, so he's sad about that, and I'm just getting more upset each day that she's not home, and I don't know when she's going to come home.

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hmmm names

Sun May 20, 2012, 11:27 AM
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Hmm wondering if I should change my username. It doesn't really have special meaning to me, just something I picked, but I'm thinking maybe using my name or something, ie catmARTin or something silly like that.  I haven't even picked names for my unborn baby who's due in a week so I think I'll have to debate this one for awhile.  Great new feature though

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Halfway to craziness

Mon Jan 30, 2012, 3:19 PM
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So I'm now just over the halfway mark, at 23 weeks.  It won't be long now before my life becomes even more insane.  As excited as I am I'm also a little anxious as to what I got myself into, raising a newborn and a toddler!  We're also planning a big move to a new house sometime in April or May, depending on when the repair work is done, because I can't just have one thing going on at a time, I've got to shove as many big events at once as I can.  I'm starting to get back into the swing of doing some actual art now thankfully, but I'm still trying to find my voice so to speak.  I guess that's it for now.  I'll be haunting around here more often from now on hopefully!

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Okay so here's the wrap up of why I haven't been around and how everything is going

First, I decided to do my first Christmas Craft Fair.  It took place on Dec 2nd-3rd and I was selling different Christmas wall hangings/papercrafting items etc.  It didn't go very well, but it didn't go very well for any of the vendors there.  A lack of customers and a skewed age demographic led to some disappointing sales, not just for me, but for many.  This was why I wasn't around for the last 2 months.  All of my free time was spent working on products.  I haven't even drawn anything since October.
Since I have some items left over I'll put up a few pics so people can see what exactly it was I was working on.

Now with that out of the way all of my energy is pretty much going to go towards work and Christmas. Once I've had a chance to clear my brain in the New Year I'll be able to get back to making art that I love.

And lastly, as of Wednesday it's official.  We had to take a trip out to the Hospital for verification where we saw tiny feet, and tiny hands.  The doctor nicknamed our baby Skeletor and they're 15 weeks old as of yesterday.  It was such a relief to know that I was past the 3 month mark and the chance for another miscarriage was decreased.  Looks like I'm due May 25-26.  And unfortunately we can't find out the sex where I live (the hospital doesn't allow it) but I'm not too bad at reading ultrasound pics so hopefully I'll be able to make an educated guess.

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srsly?

Wed Sep 7, 2011, 6:11 PM
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what awesome person gave me a sub?  if you want to remain annon that's cool, or if you just want to note me and let me know that's cool too, I would love to return the favor in some way.  Thank you whoever you are, you are the best evar!!! Love you lots :hug:

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Looks like my premium membership has expired, hot damn.  I am no longer equal to flashparade.  Oh well, maybe once I have some extra cash I'll upgrade again, or I'll enter a contest and hope to win a sub, in the meantime I'll just stick with it the way it is.
I've taken up a new hobby of making crafts, I'm currently doing some Halloween decorations, and then I'm going to move on to Christmas etc.  I'll post some photos once they're done.  I'm hoping to start selling them at craft fairs next year and online.
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A little milestone

Mon Aug 8, 2011, 10:53 AM
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My husband :iconpalorwolf: and I just had our 7 year wedding anniversary this past Saturday.  Sometimes I'm amazed at the time that we've been together.  It doesn't feel like all that long, especially when you're married to your best friend.  Love you :iconpalorwolf:

In other news, I'm participating in an Artist Trading Card event on Thursday and I have to get all the pics I want to hand out organized and printed.  I'm a little nervous, since I've never done anything like this before and I'm also worried that I don't have enough decent art to show, but I'll make due with what I have completed.
Hope everyone else is doing okay.

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  • Mood: Unhappy

The Big News Is Not Always Good

Sat Jun 18, 2011, 8:40 PM
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I would like to thank you all so much for your congratulations, but it seems I went and jumped the gun, so to speak,  I was pregnant, but no longer am.  On Thursday I went into the hospital to discover that I was having a miscarriage. I appreciate all the nice words you've given me, and hopefully I'll be able to make a good announcement again soon.



Well, I won't be going to the doctors office for 2 weeks since she's not in, but I feel fairly confident in letting people know that :iconpalorwolf: and I are expecting our second child!  We're not due till Feb/Mar so I still have plenty of art months left, but I'm too excited to keep it to myself.

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Waiting for my life to start

Mon May 2, 2011, 9:17 PM
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Sometimes that's how I feel.  I'm just waiting to break into the design/art world, but with little to no success.  A lot of it is my fault though, and some of it is just my situation.  I live somewhere where there is very little demand for design work, so I've been neglecting my portfolio in a major way and not really making any effort to get a job in that field.  My other issue is that while I'm a big fan of my own work I'm never really out there trying to promote myself or get my stuff seen.  I also never do anything about the tons of ideas that are in my head.  Motivation thy name is . . .   Ack I've just got to do something about this.   To those who are also struggling with getting out there, what do you do to get through it or stay motivated.

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